Incredibly annoyed with ... myself. Though definitely headed in the right direction for so many things when it comes to the list that I created in December of what I, as a singular person, was hoping to dive into on January 1st well, that's another story all together. A story of ... stagnation and forgetfulness, sort of like the gray skies in the Midwest during January.
I am now annoyed with my alter ego self who seems to forget that she has goals. That person who prioritizes other tasks and forgets that she shouldn't be consuming sugar and should be engaging in other actions besides overthinking and over-planning.
Astrology would conclude that this rough start in resolutions, intentions and acceptance that I've been mulling over and writing about in the last month is to blame on the Mercury retrograde. Mercury retrograde is actually an optical illusion that occurs for about three weeks approximately three to four times a year. During this time, the planet Mercury appears to be moving backwards when viewed from Earth. In astrology, this motion from any planet tends to have negative effects. Astrologers believe that a planet’s perceived backward motion can lead to increased interruptions in the things the planet rules, and because Mercury rules all forms of communication, information, transportation, and even technology, Mercury’s periods of backward motion are always causing disruption in our plans.
Lucky for me it's not only the ending of the first retrograde in 2023, but also the new moon of January AND the Chinese New Year. Therefore what could be seen as my fails are actually fresh starts.
Perspective change: I get TWO fresh starts this year. One on January 1st and one today (and if really reaching the level of being a true yogi, it's a fresh start every moment of every day with every breath - but we will start small). The last three weeks haven't been wasted but just a time of preparation and smoothing out a better foundation to let go of what doesn't serve (bad habits, negative thought patterns, unhealthy relationships and connections).
If you are like me and have been taken over by an alter ego lost in the retrograde, have no fear! Your fresh start begins now, those aren't fails of the last three weeks but fresh eyes for revising and revamping those first lists created for January 1st. I give you permission to BREATHE and celebrate the new moon and the Chinese New Year by grounding your feet into the fresh foundation you've cleared over the last three weeks and focus those fresh eyes on the fresh road ahead. Namaste!
Written by Brooke Halperin
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